However, what I don't usually see on social media is pictures of people cleaning their bathrooms, getting a C on a test, or tripping on stairs; instead, they share the most interesting and photogenic moments of their lives. They display the highlight reel so you can scroll through it while sitting in pajamas with unwashed hair. Let me remind you of something: the majority of their lives are as boring as yours.
Somehow these people make studying in a library look hip; sitting at an airport look like an exciting step in an adventure; or boxed Macaroni and Cheese appear fit for human consumption. Remember, this is an illusion, a lie--just like the idea that the yellow powder you pour into the aforementioned food is called "cheese." Or that it is called "food." If someone puts the right filter on his/her photo, even an outhouse can be made to look rustic, romantic, and exciting, but you know what an outhouse really is. You know that no camera can capture the smell that seems to blow towards you even when you are upwind of it. You can't hear the ten zillion flies zooming around inside. Once you take the vintage Instagram filter off these photos, you find that that the subject matter is mundane, dirty, and not something to be coveted.
You see my life here as this:
Recently I've been asking myself if what I post online is me being narcissistic and trying to get attention, or if it is a way for me to share events and ideas I truly care about with other people. I think for a while I had started to like the minute amount of attention I was getting online, so I decided to get away from it. Instead, I focused on really trying to be present in the place and moment I am in. I felt like working on this blog was taking me away from Germany a bit, because it does actually take quite a while to write each post. But now I'm back, and I am just going to try to write shorter posts. They always end up waaaaaaaaaayyyyy longer than I intend them to. So, my goal is shorter posts more often. Maybe I will edit them more…nope.
So, in the words of a poet I recently listened to at a reading, "If I tree falls and no one posts it on Facebook, did it really happen?" I say yes. It's okay not to inform the world of what is going on in your life. If you give it a try, you might even find it makes every event seem more real.
Lots of love,