The actual cost of rent here is actually not bad, I could feasibly pay between two and three hundred dollars a month if I have a roommate. However, most apartments are unfurnished, which sounds completely normal, right? No. In Germany you pay for everything, even the proverbial kitchen sink. That's right, most places you move into the kitchen will look like the picture on the left: begging the question "What kitchen?" Although this is not the case in every apartment, apparently you usually have to install everything yourself--counters, sink, and any appliances. Then, when you leave you can take your custom fitted counters that will not fit anywhere else with you. I understand moving the appliances, but the rest of it? This sounds like the dumbest thing I have ever heard of. Maybe I just need a German friend to explain it to me, because I don't get it. On the plus side this set-up means you can customize it…
There are other options though, such as a WG, which is basically an apartment with 4-6 bedrooms where you rent the bedroom. It is much more affordable, but I don't care about housing right now, I only mentioned it because of the math that it led me to do. I calculated roughly how much I would be making and came to the conclusion that I would be quite poor.
Usually that wouldn't bother me too much, especially because I know I could make extra money by teaching English lessons, but right now I am just so sick of being poor. All I want is to go home where I have a bank account with money in it. I don't want to think of the future; I don't want to plan anything; I don't want to do anything but go home, live with my mom for a couple weeks, and then start working at the music office. I'm tired of wondering if I will have enough money to eat while worrying about how my money is going to transfer and waiting for the train to come.
I have loved my time here, but I am longing for a sense of control and security at this point. So, I have decided that I am going to take the next year to make the decision about moving to Germany and just concentrate on graduating. Right now I feel confused about my future and what I want, so I just don't want to think about it. Before I get to that point I have to wrap up my finals here, transition back to the states, finish packing…etc. I have a lot to do, and I am grateful that means I don't have to even begin to think about making any decisions. Then I will need a year to finish my classes, at which point if I decide to move back, I might work for a while to save up the money for the move.
However, right now I am just looking forward to a deep-dish Chicago pizza (Charlie, Chris--make it happen!) and a big juicy cheeseburger topped with bacon and dripping diabetes. Morbid obesity never sounded so appealing…
Well this post was a big contrast from the last one, wasn't it? Sorry about that; I'm just ready for home.