While I was in Germany, most of the posts on this blog dealt as much with learning how to be positive as it did with living abroad. I discovered that by writing about positivity it forced me to think about it more often. It became a cycle for me; I would write about positive thinking, and in turn I would think about it, which would make me write about it more. As I became happier, I blogged more, which only served to make me feel more satisfied.
You might have noticed I haven't been blogging as much this year. This stems from the fact that I have been very busy, but also because I have been struggling a bit with negativity. However, when I feel confident and fulfilled, I begin thinking about all the blog posts I could write. I only feel that I have something worthwhile to write when I feel good about myself. When I was writing regularly, I discovered that apparently other people feel the same way, because I had a small number of devout readers.
The magazine called her a "positive-thinking powerhouse", and I thought to myself "I want to be a powerhouse of positivity." That phrase has stayed with me for four years, and sometimes it repeats in my head like a mantra.
So, a couple of days ago, I decided to start working on being sanguine, even on the days when I feel depressed. In the moments when I am making an effort to be kind and considerate toward other people in my mind and interactions, my sense of fulfillment sky-rockets. It can be little things like telling someone that I like their shirt, or finding a little container of bubbles in my backpack and going outside and blowing bubbles, making some perspective students laugh. Somedays those little joys don't feel like enough to balance everything else out, but at least I had those moments to breathe a little happiness into my day. Perhaps if I continue on those small joys and victories, someday I too will be a powerhouse of positivity.
Positively trying to be positive,